things are happening over here, like:
-we played marco polo in our pool for the first time (the apartment pool–we did not install one)
-it is getting really hot and was 98 out today. gross. sweatiness. eww. why is ac not free??
-we just went to arkansas to celebrate matt’s dad’s bd, while fishing in a river that was literally in our backyard. it was good to see family outside of a holiday environment–just mixing it up trout-style…
-with much peace, we have decided to fully pursue the adoption route. this has also concluded our foster care path temporarily (since our foster care agency would not send our home study over to our adoption agency without closing first). it was a scary step, closing down 2 years of waiting, time, emotions, and work, but we felt it was a good step. our dear friend works at this adoption agency, and has been encouraging us for some time to head in that direction. it wasn’t until lately that it felt like a serious option. while our docs have just concluded we could start down the infertility treatment path, i don’t think my heart is yet ready/prepared to start down the seemingly endless slope of more testing, doctor’s appointments, treatments, etc. for now, God is leading us in another direction.
-matt only has 6 MORE SEMESTERS LEFT!!! AND NO CLASSES! at least that are required… (shaking head).
-our 6 year anniversary is saturday. wow. crazy. long-sweet time.
-in two weeks from tomorrow we’ll be headed towards berlin. matt is always looking for new summer classes and this year he actually (with God’s total grace) received two grants that are taking him to vilnius, lithuania to study yiddish (a mix of german, hebrew and other eastern european languages/russian). st. paul’s is giving me a couple of weeks off to go with him before he starts his classes. we are going to visit: berlin, dresden, prague, vienna, bratislava, kraków and warsaw. this will be our first vacation alone (longer than 3 days and w/o family/friends). it will be good to take a pause and just be.
the place where walking around like a sexy cat in a thong and carrying around boa constrictors is alright.
like a blank canvas.
the calm hurries my senses.
making me stare
as my eyes adjust to the darkening.
dim echoes of hurled flashes
roll over obstacles–
demanding to be heard.
the atmosphere beckons in purple hues
jaggedly smeared on the high ceiling
that droops like a quilt billowing with down.
coolness envelopes me
as it pours in rivulets across
my arms and cheeks.
i stand with nothing
as something great emerges.
my hair fans away from my shoulders
as my ears discern the beginning
Splat Splat Splishes
of a storm coming nearer.