matt just ordered his cap and gown. seems only a few months that we have been here–not almost the year and a half reality. we have made our decision for graduate school. it was a long week of comparing pros and cons, phone interviews, praying, loud and drawn out “debates”, sleeplessness and mental stress/anxiety (the last one mostly me, except when it started to pour onto matt and make him stressed out).

at this very moment, matt is making the call to inform the school of our decision




matt in kc three years ago. look at all that hair!!! (i guess it all shifted to his chin)

matt in kc three years ago. look at all that hair!!! (i guess it all shifted to his chin)

christmas and mama

christmas and mama (the wisest and most incredible woman i know) thanks to her for calming my mind yesterday and helping to process clearly our final decision #thankfultojesusformamas


the day off

leaves in nashville

this morning i shared these quotes with my husband from paul miller’s a praying life. it was good for us both to hear so i am assuming that you also probably need to hear it too.

-“instead of hunting for the perfect spiritual state to lift you above the chaos, pray in the chaos” (72).

-“when you stop trying to control your life and instead allow your anxieties and problems to bring you to God in prayer, you shift from worry to watching. you watch God weave his patterns in the story of your life. instead of trying to be out front, designing your life, you realize you are inside God’s drama. as you wait, you begin to see him work, and your life begins to sparkle with wonder. you are learning to trust again” (73).

-“what does an unused prayer link look like? anxiety. instead of connecting with God, our spirits fly around like severed power lines, destroying everything that they touch. anxiety wants to be God but lacks God’s wisdom, power, or knowledge” (70).

with all matt’s new classes and students, anxiety has definitely become a struggle. for me anxiety looks different while i am worrying about way too many things that i really don’t need to be worrying about. these couple quotes have been really good for me to reflect on and realize that i need to pray without ceasing. life cannot be lived without prayer. we need God at all times.

anywho. i had the day off today so i cooked lasagna and a big double batch of cheeseburger soup (it is one of my all time favorites from growing up–it was in the original zion cookbook). i am going to freeze these meals for the next couple weeks until thanksgiving and we FINALLY GET TO GO TO NEBRASKA!!!! WOOT!!! WOOT!!! i am not very ecstatic about returning to the “good life” as you can tell. for dinner tonight i am making chicken bbq gouda pizza. i made it about a week ago, but it disappeared rather quickly and i still have enough ingredients for two more pizzas. i am pretty stoked.

hope your monday is going well too. adieu.

thursday. smursday. wondorfrondersmursday.

thursday afternoon upon arrival home, i mentioned to matt that there was a bbq stand at a nearby gas station. the stand sets up every thursday. we both determined it was a perfect moment for spontaneity and splurging (btw, our town has way more local/ethnic food venues than lincoln..hint. hint).

therefore, we jumped in the car and went on a little adventure. we arrived at the small station, which was packed full of cars trying to park for food and get gas. the rest of the parking lot was full of awnings, meat smokers, grills and picnic benches. it was great.

we ordered a brisket sandwich and a pulled pork sandwich with two sides of macaroni and cheese (which was some of the best mac i have ever had…it was almost…might i say….gourmet?)

we tried the spicy bbq sauce and the sweet and tangy. the hot sauce was a deep maroon and tasted reminiscent of raspberry. we sat on a bench with yellow leaves. chatted about marriage and our new little town. it was sublime.

afterwards, i decided to take matt on a tour of the southern part of our town. we stopped in at the tibetan mongolian buddhist cultural center.

the image below is the kalachakra stupa. i was amazed that such places like this exist within 10 minutes of our house. i have never come across anything like this before either in lincoln or other places i have visited in the u.s. the reason for the cultural center and temple (there are two in town) is because of a professor at IU: thubten jigme norbu. norbu was the eldest brother of his holiness the dalai lama of tibet. the dalai lama comes here every three years.

a stupa (according to wiki): “A stupa (from Sanskrit: m., स्तूप, stūpaSinhaleseස්ථූපයPāli: थुप “thūpa”, literally meaning “heap”) is a mound-like structure containing Buddhist relics, typically the remains of Buddha, used by Buddhists as a place of worship”

the image below is inside the kumbum chamtse ling temple. an elderly asian woman came and placed a mat on the floor and began her yoga while we were there. she was way more flexible than me.

after we left, we drove by my work and to the shoe store. matt is getting new inserts for his feet and the doc wants him to buy some real shoes. sadly, matt’s hipster/professorial style will be slightly diminished in this purchase.