totally making this for dessert tomorrow night with my new cast iron skillet from my g-ma (it was her grandmother’s).

will be putting toffee bits into this also…good gracious loving.

picture post to come.


the cheese

the other day

it was late

on a sunday

things had been postponed

till last minute

frantic grocery shopping

text and call

of yes, ketchup

and no, chips


grilled cheeses were

on the scurried menu

for a late lunch

at 2:32

even though

dinner was set

for 5.

i was making the usual

poor man grilled cheese:

store bought wheat loaf

with american cheese singles

not like i grew up with–

the thick homemade bread

and real sharp cheddar.

as i was flipping the last

of the sandwiches

on my little

black skillet

i spied it:

the lone sliver

of perfectly beautiful


it had been overlooked

in the mental mayhem.

and now sat

in an oversized

ziploc bag

like a translucent ballon


without any bread

to embrace its pale sides.

i slipped it into the skillet

right next to its

fellow brother sandwich.

they looked quite at ease

in the pan

all snuggled up.

the cheese began

to sizzle

to soften and pale

at the edges

bubbles emerging

as well as a pool of grease.

it soon submerged

the square of gouda

floating around

happily szzz szzzz szzzzlin.

my mouth full

of anticipation

as the cheese

metamorphed into a golden luster

of pure fattening bliss.

every bite delighted

my every sense.

the sharp crackle

of the new gouda crust

giving way to

a molten center.

that once forlorn gouda

shall never be forgotten


worry wart

lately, i have been pondering a lot. i often think about our budget and how much money we are making and putting away. with my first pay check from my new job, i have been recently wondering if this cleaning job is really the job i want to stay with (not to mention my worries of my job’s inflexibility of taking time off around christmas).

today, i planned on beginning a new job search. however, my cleaning partner suggested i talk with our manager and discuss/request the time off i wanted. consequently, the talk proceeded and i walked away with a two week christmas break. God never ceases to amaze me and stun my mouth and mind for words. i worry and i fuss. i rely on myself to start looking for a new job. i fret about our savings and marriage. and what does God do? he gives me a great, at home weekend with my husband and a two week christmas vacation–plenty of time to visit both families. in addition, i asked my cleaning partner about her paycheck and realized my last check’s minuscule amount would be temporary. the Lord does provide–in his time.

this weekend matt and i are celebrating our birthdays together. his is the 26th of september and mine the 1st of october. we have always had issues of unbeknownst angst and competition with our birthdays so close together and trying to comply with 2 separate birthdays. well, to heck with that tradition! we decided on doing a birthday dinner party on saturday. i am going to try to imitate our israeli dinner  (with courses and hospitality) and hopefully the israeli couple will come! 3 other couples with be joining us. for appetizers my mother and i agreed on pears and grapes with brie and gouda (its apple smoked!). the entree will consist of chicken tikka masala (thanks to a great recipe from my mom and renee) with fresh naan and possibly a mint chutney. and for dessert you ask? well, i will be using our new ice-cream maker for a lemon basil sorbet. how does that sound? that is what i thought. absolutely. delicious. hope your week is going splendidly also.