square one

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together. complete.

the words i used

to name the band on my finger.

the roof over head.

the money sitting in the account.

checking the squares

till they’re too numerous to count.

when did living like this start?

too busy in my head

too busy not looking ahead

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raising the bar for myself

to be the one

running forward

multitasking with glue

building makeshift thrones i planned to stand upon

to look down in wonder at the magnificence

my dreams have conjured.

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looking back

the me is a child.

the membrane walls of my dreams waver

revealing a body

alone and naked.

i am told:

i am complete

i am whole

i have a place here.

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the time has come to

find this niche

that has been waiting just for me

to serve

love

worship

now.

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the post you have been patiently waiting for: part 1

2:00 o’clock already. so many fails today: sewing machines that only work for my mother-in-law, fighting with matt, putting said sewing machine away, hanging laundry, arguing with matt, cleaning, washing light fixtures, fighting…..

listening to “when God hides his face”, a sermon from our old church. so good. talking about if we trust God or just make him into the image that suits us best. blogging. thinking about thankfulness from this recent post:  “give me gratitude or give me debt”. so much to be thankful for. been reading the mary russel series–love, love, love (thanks grams for the suggest).

 

one of my favorite pieces from our old church garage.

one of my favorite pieces from our old church garage.

 

etsy prints from our church of every place we have lived: lincoln, bloomington and atlanta. and matt's temporary bike parking.

etsy prints from our church of every place we have lived: lincoln, bloomington and atlanta. and matt’s temporary bike parking.

 

cleaned off the table today. new print on wall of old laundry mat in bloomington. free from shutterfly.

cleaned off the table today. new print on wall of old laundry mat in bloomington. free from shutterfly.

 

begonia from our neighboor

begonia from our neighboor

 

40s kitchen

40s kitchen

 

laundry day

laundry day

 

cute faces on my fridge

cute faces on my fridge

 

our big western window

our big western window

 

favorite wall: bd lamp, royi holler prints, stacking bookcase.

favorite wall: bd lamp, royi holler prints, stacking bookcase.

 

free bookcase. 2 cans of white spray paint (you can't even tell that we put tape over the screw holes, mom) #resourcefulmama

free bookcase. 2 cans of white spray paint (you can’t even tell that we put tape over the screw holes, mom) #resourcefulmama

 

front door. you're welcome anytime!

front door. you’re welcome anytime!

my cali-husker moving crew

mad and bex aka "sweet trouble"

mad and bex aka “sweet trouble”

 

sexy ginger britches

sexy ginger britches

 

papa b. aka "techno-master"

papa b. aka “techno-master”

 

my nebraska mama

my nebraska mama

 

beca-maggie aka "organizer-magnifique"

beca-maggie aka “organizer-magnifique”

 

mama b. aka "busy-b"

mama b. aka “busy-b”

 

the only picture i took of my pop's face. a bit ironic...

the only picture i caught of my pop’s face. a bit ironic…

thank you. could not have done it without you guys. everything is hanging up. our new office is looking sharp.  matt and i are settling into our new space. bit weird to have an upstairs. explored an eastern indian strip mall today. our favorite store was the grocery store: the spices were all in bulk and RIDICULOUSLY cheap. let’s just say we’ll be cooking a LOT of indian in the next few months…or years.